I bet anyone who know me would say that I am a happy-go-lucky girl. Frank, sensible, love to laugh. Yet, I seem to be keeping away from the society. Always solitary. Alone. Even my Facebook's wall is blank with nobody comment.
Yet, I like it that way. Only that sometimes, I itch for someone to connect to. I seem to be the desperate housewife that expect others to read my mind.
And yes! I can be easily jealous at times! Often enough, I find myself telling myself to cool down. That's why I need to find my own purpose of life. The one that I have been thinking for 5 years now. Yet, never seem to find a fixed one of my own. Whenever I'm occupied, the thought is placed at the back of my mind. When not, I'll be depressed to find that I'm a hopeless, helpless girl.
I'm going for further study. Pursuing my once lost intention. I wanted to become a mental consultant. A spiritual health counsellor. I was inspired when I went for a talk organized bby HELP after Form 5 in Pay Fong High School. That poster had since been sellotaped in my room. Perhaps, it became a constant reminder of my sub-conscious to become a contributor to public. Every night before I lie down in my room, I'll brain-wash myself to become a confident girl, a strong & energetic women who can success in life.
After Form 6, I still had not reach the level of confidence that I vow to reach. I was still timid in making decision to take up Counselling Course as my degree. I'm not sure whether it's a correct choice. Because I like UPM. The environment that developed my independence, my time-management, going for my interest & of Lye Song I know. Yet, that is past.
Now, at age 25, after graduated 3 years, again, I made a choice. I cannot break my own promise. I don't want to feel regret not doing things that I hesitate doing. I have been giving advices to people encouraging them to pursue their dreams, even writes it in my diary to live each day its fullest. Yet, here I am not doing it?!! Can't let this happen!
GOSH, it's so dark now that it is raining! I better be offline now!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Swimming Day & Night
Now is December, we just started our school holiday swimming programme. Which means, I get into the pool twice a day - morning & evening.
Recently, I have been getting up quite early, my body clock now clicks at 7am. So, I go out of the house by 8am, reach Botanic to have half an hour swim before conducting my class at 9am. That is refreshing! I always like morning swim!
But the thing is, by after noon, I'm tired or have loads of things to do. Therefore, it's always a bit of reluctance to go back to Botanic again in the evenings. Especially now when it's rainy time...not sure whether I can claim my income for that evening or not...
I'm wearing my diving suit every day now. Morning - to protect myself from getting tanner. Evening - to prevent my body from being too cold. I'm now feeling heat, my nasal keep producing liquid & often sneeze. After consuming 2 tablet of Clarinase given by Lye Song & not getting better, I know that this is not normal runny nose. Though it states there to be taken every 12 hours, I took another one in just 5 hours between.
I slept early at 11pm last night. Due to my health condition, I woke up at 3am to blow out excessive liquid & can't get back to sleep. As usual, I time myself half an hour to fall asleep. When that fails, I'll find sth else to do. So, that's it! I got my attendance done, have a cup of milk & some tiny-miny stuff. By the time everytime settled, the clock shows 645am. Slept another hour before my alarm rings...
Now, I get worry on spending too much time in the water without wearing my diving suit. After an indicative experience, you bet! There has been a few time I felt so cold that I trembled. Yet the worse was even my fingers went numb after the trembling process. That really made me aware! On my food intake also...I went off hungry many, many times...
I try my best to make sure I eat enough protein, calcium, Vit C & iron during my lunch. As heavy as breakfast can be & as avoidable white flour I could. Still, there dizziness is there. Sometimes strong, other times weak.
This mid-morning, there was an uncle comment that I lose some weight. He preferred my previous figure. Anything. I just want to enjoy my swimming sessions, my schedules & my food!
Recently, I have been getting up quite early, my body clock now clicks at 7am. So, I go out of the house by 8am, reach Botanic to have half an hour swim before conducting my class at 9am. That is refreshing! I always like morning swim!
But the thing is, by after noon, I'm tired or have loads of things to do. Therefore, it's always a bit of reluctance to go back to Botanic again in the evenings. Especially now when it's rainy time...not sure whether I can claim my income for that evening or not...
I'm wearing my diving suit every day now. Morning - to protect myself from getting tanner. Evening - to prevent my body from being too cold. I'm now feeling heat, my nasal keep producing liquid & often sneeze. After consuming 2 tablet of Clarinase given by Lye Song & not getting better, I know that this is not normal runny nose. Though it states there to be taken every 12 hours, I took another one in just 5 hours between.
I slept early at 11pm last night. Due to my health condition, I woke up at 3am to blow out excessive liquid & can't get back to sleep. As usual, I time myself half an hour to fall asleep. When that fails, I'll find sth else to do. So, that's it! I got my attendance done, have a cup of milk & some tiny-miny stuff. By the time everytime settled, the clock shows 645am. Slept another hour before my alarm rings...
Now, I get worry on spending too much time in the water without wearing my diving suit. After an indicative experience, you bet! There has been a few time I felt so cold that I trembled. Yet the worse was even my fingers went numb after the trembling process. That really made me aware! On my food intake also...I went off hungry many, many times...
I try my best to make sure I eat enough protein, calcium, Vit C & iron during my lunch. As heavy as breakfast can be & as avoidable white flour I could. Still, there dizziness is there. Sometimes strong, other times weak.
This mid-morning, there was an uncle comment that I lose some weight. He preferred my previous figure. Anything. I just want to enjoy my swimming sessions, my schedules & my food!
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Anak Melaka (Part 1)
One can never forget his birthplace. It's not the same elsewhere. Place where you once used to play rough around the neighbourhood. Place where you find comfort where you don't even afraid to sleep alone outside. Place where you feel the most freedom!
I was back home for the weekend again. I was supposedly follow my BF & his friends to a friend's wedding in Muar. however upon hearing that my dad's health condition aren't good, I decided to stay home. Yet, I did not do much of what I planned to do since my dad did not need much of my help.
We (Alvin, LS, Wei Kee & Zhong Qiu) leave in a Saga by 1pm. I was so hungry from the previous day & did not have my breakfast since morning that I feel I'm on the negative verge. Luckily, we stop in Bkt Tinggi for lunch b4 moving on. There are a lot of vehicles in M'cca entering from the toll right to M'cca town. LS & friends were in dismay when we reach Melaka Baru to find the chicken rice shop has sold their last piece of chicken meat... Therefore, we went straight down to Jonker St to have a bowl of Durian cendol each after checking into Chong Hoe Hotel.
Wei Kee & Zhong Qiu fall in love with crafted boken sold in Jonker St that they keep eyeing them, while Alvin keep reminding LS to buy a 4x4 cube. Thereafter, we continue to walk leisurely along the pathway till more stall vendors came to set up their stalls for the night business. There are really a lot of amazing things that attracts both tourist & locals but time's up for us to go back, shower & leave for Winnie's wedding.
I was tired by 10pm that I took a short nap after setting my alarm at 2311 to open the house door for LS & Alvin. I missed call LS in vain, so I guessed that he might be sleeping in the car. What I didn't expect when I hear the bell sound at 2332 was that LS was drunk & was vomiting when I went outside to have a look!!!
Wei Kee & Zhong Qiu stood outside for about 20mins while Alvin, me & my mom clean the mess. What I didn't notice was LS vomited on his right rear door when I tried to close the door. GROSS! I have to run to the back of my house again for another bucket of water & cloth to clean those stomach content. Lye Song later amused me by his drunkard walk. He walked to the middle of the road unstably. Hahaha!!!
I push Pa's wheelchair to the front to escort Lye Song to the foot of the staircase leading to my bedroom. He was sooooo dizzy & feels like vomiting again that I let him rest a while in that wheelchair.
Upon waking up the next day, he couldn't recall how he enter his car & was still feeling dizzy! Terrible! He came to my sister's room at 0530 & woke me up! I couldn't sleep till 6am. By the clock rang of 7am, I was awake again & went down for a light breakfast. I pack my thins & clear those unwanted clothes with the help of Yeei & Errk into new plastic bags to give to Tzu-Chi since we'll be passing by later.
At lunch, LS asked his friends to recall again on the account last night. Alvin told him that he vomited 5 times & repeat each location... Haha!!! We all ate 40 chic rice balls & 1 whole chic which cost only RM 27.20. I take away 100 chic rice balls with 2 chic which cost me only RM 49.00! Damn cheap, half the price of He Ji in Jonker St.
My family couldn't finish the 2 chickens... We went back my house after both WK & ZQ checked out. Zhong Qiu did not sleep the whole night as it was too cold. Alvin only slept at 2am coz it is not his bed. LS & ZQ chatted with Pa for a hour. We only proceed our trip at 1pm. They went jln2 to clock tower & Jonker St again & didn't forget to buy boken while LS & Alvin went for a haircut.
Just before we make decision to leave M'cca, LS suggested eating Nyonya food. Of all 3 Nyonya restaurants (Ole Sayang, Nyonya Makko, Nyonya Indah) in Melaka Raya close, only Banyonya was open for biz. So I suggested Udang Masak Lemak nenas, Pongteh, Cencaluk omelet, itik tim & Kangkung Belacan. We finished our food at 5pm. By 6pm, we exit the toll in Ayer Keroh. Just after passing by Pedas/Linggi exit, the highway was jammed till after Seremban exit! That was a whole 4 hours journey until we reach Bkt Tinggi at 945pm! I was asleep in the car for an hour...
What's more, those kaki game want to play game some more! I joined them for web surfing for an hour. By the time we finish at 11pm, my stomach was growling & supper we had! Fat alr la... Ystd's every meal was full! I managed to keep awake till 1am b4 I fall asleep due to my wet hair. Today, wake up at 9am - 8 hours' sleep.
Wonderful Melaka, quiet trip as LS's friends don't talk much.
I was back home for the weekend again. I was supposedly follow my BF & his friends to a friend's wedding in Muar. however upon hearing that my dad's health condition aren't good, I decided to stay home. Yet, I did not do much of what I planned to do since my dad did not need much of my help.
We (Alvin, LS, Wei Kee & Zhong Qiu) leave in a Saga by 1pm. I was so hungry from the previous day & did not have my breakfast since morning that I feel I'm on the negative verge. Luckily, we stop in Bkt Tinggi for lunch b4 moving on. There are a lot of vehicles in M'cca entering from the toll right to M'cca town. LS & friends were in dismay when we reach Melaka Baru to find the chicken rice shop has sold their last piece of chicken meat... Therefore, we went straight down to Jonker St to have a bowl of Durian cendol each after checking into Chong Hoe Hotel.
Wei Kee & Zhong Qiu fall in love with crafted boken sold in Jonker St that they keep eyeing them, while Alvin keep reminding LS to buy a 4x4 cube. Thereafter, we continue to walk leisurely along the pathway till more stall vendors came to set up their stalls for the night business. There are really a lot of amazing things that attracts both tourist & locals but time's up for us to go back, shower & leave for Winnie's wedding.
I was tired by 10pm that I took a short nap after setting my alarm at 2311 to open the house door for LS & Alvin. I missed call LS in vain, so I guessed that he might be sleeping in the car. What I didn't expect when I hear the bell sound at 2332 was that LS was drunk & was vomiting when I went outside to have a look!!!
Wei Kee & Zhong Qiu stood outside for about 20mins while Alvin, me & my mom clean the mess. What I didn't notice was LS vomited on his right rear door when I tried to close the door. GROSS! I have to run to the back of my house again for another bucket of water & cloth to clean those stomach content. Lye Song later amused me by his drunkard walk. He walked to the middle of the road unstably. Hahaha!!!
I push Pa's wheelchair to the front to escort Lye Song to the foot of the staircase leading to my bedroom. He was sooooo dizzy & feels like vomiting again that I let him rest a while in that wheelchair.
Upon waking up the next day, he couldn't recall how he enter his car & was still feeling dizzy! Terrible! He came to my sister's room at 0530 & woke me up! I couldn't sleep till 6am. By the clock rang of 7am, I was awake again & went down for a light breakfast. I pack my thins & clear those unwanted clothes with the help of Yeei & Errk into new plastic bags to give to Tzu-Chi since we'll be passing by later.
At lunch, LS asked his friends to recall again on the account last night. Alvin told him that he vomited 5 times & repeat each location... Haha!!! We all ate 40 chic rice balls & 1 whole chic which cost only RM 27.20. I take away 100 chic rice balls with 2 chic which cost me only RM 49.00! Damn cheap, half the price of He Ji in Jonker St.
My family couldn't finish the 2 chickens... We went back my house after both WK & ZQ checked out. Zhong Qiu did not sleep the whole night as it was too cold. Alvin only slept at 2am coz it is not his bed. LS & ZQ chatted with Pa for a hour. We only proceed our trip at 1pm. They went jln2 to clock tower & Jonker St again & didn't forget to buy boken while LS & Alvin went for a haircut.
Just before we make decision to leave M'cca, LS suggested eating Nyonya food. Of all 3 Nyonya restaurants (Ole Sayang, Nyonya Makko, Nyonya Indah) in Melaka Raya close, only Banyonya was open for biz. So I suggested Udang Masak Lemak nenas, Pongteh, Cencaluk omelet, itik tim & Kangkung Belacan. We finished our food at 5pm. By 6pm, we exit the toll in Ayer Keroh. Just after passing by Pedas/Linggi exit, the highway was jammed till after Seremban exit! That was a whole 4 hours journey until we reach Bkt Tinggi at 945pm! I was asleep in the car for an hour...
What's more, those kaki game want to play game some more! I joined them for web surfing for an hour. By the time we finish at 11pm, my stomach was growling & supper we had! Fat alr la... Ystd's every meal was full! I managed to keep awake till 1am b4 I fall asleep due to my wet hair. Today, wake up at 9am - 8 hours' sleep.
Wonderful Melaka, quiet trip as LS's friends don't talk much.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Dilemmas
Sometimes, we just couldn't decide for sure what we want in life. In my case - my career, the type of house that I want to live in, the exact words that I want to write.
Life is sometimes a spider web- the more we struggle, the more tangled we are. To keep cool, we need to relax. The reason we know how to relax is due to the amount of experience we have gained. Sometimes, I pity young children nowadays. They live in such technological advancement & social security obstruction that they are kept in a place so limited that they have so much more not to be explore.
My boyfriend's youngest brother is 14.5 years old now. However, I was so surprised that he was so excited upon seeing earthworm ystd! He have not seen one b4 his whole life! I can see that he has a very protective mother. Yet this is too much! I already make a decision not to let my children be taken care of by her.
Same goes to the spoilt children I teach in Botanic resort Club- the place where I work. I observed that they are so timid that it took ages for some of them to learn swimming. Perhaps, I was taught in pool as deep as 12.5ft. Whereby, Botanic pool deepest is only 2.00m aka 6ft+. I remembered that I'm always in frustration teaching swimming to those so timid that they don't even want to put their head into the water.
I've written that Lye Song & I were planning to buy a house. Actually, I was the one who suggested to invest in buying a house since LS has abundant of surplus every month that he'll still waste into buying unnecessary things. Yet, he doesn't have a clear view of what type of house to buy. Till now, none of us are serious buyer. It's already nearly a year. I wonder when my feeling will come.
LS friends once say that he likes to complain. HE IS! There just seem no hose to suit him! He wants to stay in an apartment, yet I don't quite agree with this idea as we need to move out again after we have children. Unless, I confirm that I'm moving back to M'cca with my children while LS stays here for work. If he's willing to sacrifice, he'll have to travel back to M'cca every fortnight for us.
My career - I still have not get a finite answer. I already decide to progress towards this career, yet where else can I proceed into. Must I work in educational related institution only, or can I work in private practice? Is there any other place that I can reach out for more people?
I'm passing my time waiting. How old am I on the inside? Too old? Coz I consumed too much time waiting for the right opportunity to come to me...
Life is sometimes a spider web- the more we struggle, the more tangled we are. To keep cool, we need to relax. The reason we know how to relax is due to the amount of experience we have gained. Sometimes, I pity young children nowadays. They live in such technological advancement & social security obstruction that they are kept in a place so limited that they have so much more not to be explore.
My boyfriend's youngest brother is 14.5 years old now. However, I was so surprised that he was so excited upon seeing earthworm ystd! He have not seen one b4 his whole life! I can see that he has a very protective mother. Yet this is too much! I already make a decision not to let my children be taken care of by her.
Same goes to the spoilt children I teach in Botanic resort Club- the place where I work. I observed that they are so timid that it took ages for some of them to learn swimming. Perhaps, I was taught in pool as deep as 12.5ft. Whereby, Botanic pool deepest is only 2.00m aka 6ft+. I remembered that I'm always in frustration teaching swimming to those so timid that they don't even want to put their head into the water.
I've written that Lye Song & I were planning to buy a house. Actually, I was the one who suggested to invest in buying a house since LS has abundant of surplus every month that he'll still waste into buying unnecessary things. Yet, he doesn't have a clear view of what type of house to buy. Till now, none of us are serious buyer. It's already nearly a year. I wonder when my feeling will come.
LS friends once say that he likes to complain. HE IS! There just seem no hose to suit him! He wants to stay in an apartment, yet I don't quite agree with this idea as we need to move out again after we have children. Unless, I confirm that I'm moving back to M'cca with my children while LS stays here for work. If he's willing to sacrifice, he'll have to travel back to M'cca every fortnight for us.
My career - I still have not get a finite answer. I already decide to progress towards this career, yet where else can I proceed into. Must I work in educational related institution only, or can I work in private practice? Is there any other place that I can reach out for more people?
I'm passing my time waiting. How old am I on the inside? Too old? Coz I consumed too much time waiting for the right opportunity to come to me...
Monday, November 9, 2009
What car colour says about you?
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Source: 2004 DuPont Automotive Color Popularity Report.
Well, I like WHITE cars, but prefer RED motorcycles!!!
Well, I like WHITE cars, but prefer RED motorcycles!!!
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Perodua Car Price List (for my rec)
What a difference isn't it? I choose No. 1 because there is no car cheaper than this! While I like red Kelisa SE very much! Yet, I'm buying New Saga, the cheapest sedan car as compared to Myvi (RM7K more dear)
Perodua Kancil
Model | RM |
| KANCIL 660 BASIC 660 Basic | 22,523.50 |
| KANCIL 660 EX (Manual) Solid | 24,443.50 |
| KANCIL 660 EX (Manual) Metallic | 24,802.60 |
| KANCIL 850 EX (Manual) Solid | 28,277.80 |
| KANCIL 850 EX (Manual) Metallic | 28,636.60 |
| KANCIL 850 EX (Manual) (Special Edition) | 30,076.80 |
| KANCIL 850 EZ (Auto) Solid | 33,724.60 |
| KANCIL 850 EZ (Auto) Metallic | 34,204.60 |
Model | RM |
| KELISA GXQ IMAGO (Manual) Metallic | 37,871.00 |
| KELISA EZQ IMAGO (Auto) Metallic | 40,118.40 |
| KELISA 1000 GX (Manual) Solid | 34,919.40 |
| KELISA 1000 GX (Manual) Metallic | 35,468.60 |
| KELISA 1000 EZ (AUTO) Solid | 38,295.70 |
| KELISA 1000 EZ (AUTO) Metallic | 39,017.70 |
| KELISA 1000 GX Special Edition (M) Metallic | 37,640.10 |
| KELISA 1000 EZS Special Edition (M) Metallic | 39,887.40 |
| KELISA 850 GX (Manual) Solid | 31,011.70 |
| KELISA 850 GX (Manual) Metallic | 31,564.60 |
| Model | RM |
| KENARI 1000 GX (Manual) Solid | 39,046.50 |
| KENARI 1000 GX (Manual) Metallic | 39,620.50 |
| KENARI 1000 EZ (Auto) Metallic | 42,452.50 |
| KENARI 1000 GX (Aero) Manual Solid | 41,263.10 |
| KENARI 1000 GX (Aero) Manual Metallic | 41,837.20 |
| KENARI 1000 EZ (Aero) Solid | 44,250.60 |
| KENARI 1000 EZ (Aero) Metallic | 44,633.70 |
| Model | RM |
| KEMBARA 1.3 GXB (Manual) Metallic | 53,295.20 |
| KEMBARA 1.3 EZB (Manual) Metallic | 56,003.20 |
| KEMBARA 1.3 ELE (EZS) Auto Metallic | 59,863.20 |
| KEMBARA 1.3 GX ( Aero) Manual Metallic | 55,295.20 |
| KEMBARA 1.3 EZ ( Aero) Auto Metallic | 58,003.20 |
| Model | RM |
| MYVI 1.0 (Manual) Solid | 38,934.10 |
| MYVI 1.0 (Manual) Metallic | 39,457.30 |
| MYVI 1.3 (Manual) Standard Solid | 43,027.40 |
| MYVI 1.3 (Manual) Standard Metallic | 43,550.60 |
| MYVI 1.3 (Auto) Standard Solid | 45,932.40 |
| MYVI 1.3 (Auto) Standard Metallic | 46,455.60 |
| MYVI 1.3 (Manual) Premium Solid | 45,935.40 |
| MYVI 1.3 (Manual) Premium Metallic | 46,455.60 |
| MYVI 1.3 (Auto) Premium Solid | 48,812.40 |
| MYVI 1.3 (Auto) Premium Metallic | 49,335.60 |
Cruel Man-Killing Sharks
Water stands 70% of the globe, yet how much do human care about other life in the World? This topic I'm focusing on is whales & sharks, the most fearsome predator int the sea.
Having Discovery Channel & animal Planet at home, documentaries have given us insights of underwater world. Wanna guess how many of us appreciate it? Well, I'd better not know! Ystd's documentary was shark killing. Imagine you yourself being captured by some species smarter than you, cut off all your limbs, then throw you back into the rubbish bin, leaving you to die.
Would you still do the same to our fellow friends in nature?
How heartless are all humans living on earth?
Damaging any of our ecosystem will erupt other living beings... Haven't anyone discover that???
This shows how stupid or ignorant is human race!
When one says big, we could only imagine big. Yet, after watching ystd's documentary, I was shocked to hear how many sharks were caught every day for their fins! Let's put it this way (for more impact) - We kill 1000 humans every day around the world, including babies who have soft white skin. EACH & EVERY DAY!
What do you think would happen to the human population?
Well, if it gets lesser, I would be more happy! Less problems created! I couldn't agree more!!!
Worse still, shark killing occurs because of the belief the nutrient human benefit from it's fin! They don't even have the right to own their limbs!!! Pooh!
Same goes to human trafficking around the world - some humans are just ill-luck that they don't own they body. Else, how would prostitute & child trafficking occur?
This is a thought for us to think...
Having Discovery Channel & animal Planet at home, documentaries have given us insights of underwater world. Wanna guess how many of us appreciate it? Well, I'd better not know! Ystd's documentary was shark killing. Imagine you yourself being captured by some species smarter than you, cut off all your limbs, then throw you back into the rubbish bin, leaving you to die.
Would you still do the same to our fellow friends in nature?
How heartless are all humans living on earth?
Damaging any of our ecosystem will erupt other living beings... Haven't anyone discover that???
This shows how stupid or ignorant is human race!
When one says big, we could only imagine big. Yet, after watching ystd's documentary, I was shocked to hear how many sharks were caught every day for their fins! Let's put it this way (for more impact) - We kill 1000 humans every day around the world, including babies who have soft white skin. EACH & EVERY DAY!
What do you think would happen to the human population?
Well, if it gets lesser, I would be more happy! Less problems created! I couldn't agree more!!!
Worse still, shark killing occurs because of the belief the nutrient human benefit from it's fin! They don't even have the right to own their limbs!!! Pooh!
Same goes to human trafficking around the world - some humans are just ill-luck that they don't own they body. Else, how would prostitute & child trafficking occur?
This is a thought for us to think...
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